Starshot-seeker

I do not want to go with them to another country, I'd rather die than live another 10 years with "my family", I'm not a fucking human sacrifice for my brothers, I'm tired of blaming myself for 10 years since my father passed away I am a person, not an object, I am autistic and intelligent in my own way, I am not a Sheldon and a fool, I am not going to live for them, I want to live for myself and my desires, dreams and hopes more with someone special I want to be his girlfriend I just want to be me and be happy...